i had a conference, so i wonder if why i wanna escape from that career. I want more. When i look around the ballroom, i realize that may be i’m not who i used to be anymore. Years ago, i loved my work, i loved writing, just writing, nothing else. But now, when everything is changing, so am i.

A fuckin’ bitchy ass has shown me that she could catch up with me much faster than i ever thought. Moreover, many people can be a cooperating reporter becos a lot of magazine has come out and they really need informations of the public. Being a reporter seems like the easiest way to earn money, many excitement, not too much things to do but earn well for students. That’s true. I feel unhappy. I had to try my best, but now they dont need to do that.

U know, 2 years ago, i felt embarrassed when someone called me a journalist. But now, most teenagers, who had a tiny bit on the magazine can brag about themself being a journalist. That means if u are a journalist and major in the showbiz, ur life must be very very exciting becos u are crowded by celebries everyday. U must be proud of urself. But with me, my dream has just ended. With me, journalism is a career. Being a journalist means that u r seriously about writing and r accepted by the public, u also have a lot experience ( for 5-10 years or more).

Now, they dont think so. They think that they have some words on the web pages and they can be called journalist. Haha… That’s so ridiculous.

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Ooh my God,

Xmas is coming.

It’s too fast

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I’ll be Europe next Xmas

Hope so

Haha…